Goodnight Moon

I don't have a job anymore.

I can't sleep, and I can't turn off my brain.

I hate what they did to me.

I've lost hope in human decency and trust.




A few tylenol pms should do the trick, lets hope.

Terminated

ter·mi·nate [tur-muh-neyt]
-nat·ed, -nat·ing.
–verb (used with object)
1. to bring to an end; put an end to: to terminate a contract.
2. to occur at or form the conclusion of: The countess's soliloquy terminates the play.
3. to bound or limit spatially; form or be situated at the extremity of.
4. to dismiss from a job; fire: to terminate employees during a recession.
–verb (used without object)
5. to end, conclude, or cease.
6. (of a train, bus, or other public conveyance) to end a scheduled run at a certain place: This train terminates in New York.
7. to come to an end (often fol. by at, in, or with).
8. to issue or result (usually fol. by in).

Enter - Wine, stage left.

Finis

Video Vuesday

Two great vids stolen from MetroDad because lets be honest, his blog is a candy store, and I am a 5yr old.


First Video Savante - Rejected Olympic Sport


Rejected Olympic Sport: Toddler Tossing - Watch more free videos


Second Video Genius - Where is Mike?


Where the Hell is Matt? (2008) from Matthew Harding on Vimeo.

Kitten Shenanigans

So, I put the kittens out in the yard as I typically do on a weekend morning as it's cooler and they like to play out in the fenced yard. I go to let them in at noon, and only miss Chloe is there waiting. Hmm, where's Abbie I wonder. I call her name a few times, but she doesn't come. Usually I can say it once and her bushy little self will bounce out from behind a plant. I throw on a pair of flip flops and go looking, in a robe no less. I crawl behind the trees to get to the side yard. Lo and behold there's a break in the fence, so I figure the little fury devil must have escaped. By this time I'm panicking, thinking she's probably gotten run over by a car or eaten by a neighbors dog. I race inside and throw on some jeans and a shirt, I run back outside, climb through the fence, and begin sneaking around my neighbors yard whispering her name. I wasn't able to find her, so I figure I'll check around the front of their yard - I creep back into our yard, back into the house, and swing open the front door ready to run and search - and there she is, meowing, wondering where I've been this entire time. I don't think I've ever hugged that kitten so tightly.

Needless to say, the kittens are not allowed back into the yard without the fence being fixed.

I think it's time to put the collars onto the kitties with their registration and what not. It's just that they go completely insane with the bells attached to them, but the bells won't come off :P

We'll see.

Guess what? 4 day work week and 4 day weekend coming up. Squeek squeek - I are happy.

Chicken Night

Some weeks are harder than others. Some make you want to dance or sing, and others make you want to tear our your hair and stomp on teddy bears.

This week was the week of 'the change'. It hasn't been bad, but it's been quite a handful getting into a new routine. And as anyone who lives in the states know, with the economy being what it is, I'm lucky to still have a job. Which brings me onto the newest change during the week of change - they decided that instead of heave hoe'ing one of us, we're each going to work 4hrs less a week in order to help alleviate some of the economy woes that we're currently facing. /breathe of relief, I still have a job. For now. On a positive note I spoke with my office mgr and she said that if things changed and my future here was less certain that she'd give me a heads up.

Needless to say, not going to lose sleep over it just yet.

Onto more important things - there's this kitten I know..she's extremely hairy and evidently doesn't know how to clean herself. This resulted in her being ceremonially dipped in and out of the bathtub that was filled with water. Now to the question - in order to prevent some of the kitten dirtiness should I: a) wash her more often b) cut off some of that hair or c) ignore it and it'll go away. In an attempt to keep the princess'sssss cleaner we got some long haired kitty litter to help sort out some of the other dirty issues :).

Chris is encouraging me to start classes this Spring. I really want to start working towards my degree but at the same time I feel like I have zero time as is. Sure I could cut things back a bit, but as is I'm spread thinner than butter on a dieters piece of bread, I don't have any time to even figure out what I'd cut back on! I'll add that to my weekend todo list. /furrows brow.

I've been craving meat all week - knowing me, this is an extremely rare event. So behold...Tonight is chicken night - the best night of the month or whenever we have it. I must explain. Chicken night is not just eating chicken - it's an assortment of chicken. We cook up three + recipes of chicken and snack on them as finger food over the evening with wine. And by we, I mean Chris, because lets face it, I ain't the shiniest pan in the cupboard. I'm salivating with the mere thoughts of chicken night.

Oh! I have officially moved into my office, and am making it home. I have a little wall of quotes, and have sanitized every inch of everything. It's nice, I can put my ipod on and listen to some tuneage as I work, and hum without anyone hearing - unless they walk by of course. My filing is set and in motion, my printer prints, and best of all it's mine. Still not quite done but we'll get to the little things like setting up my voicemail later.

I'll finish this up later.

Happy tgif peoples!

Anniversary

It's been two years today, that yours truly got married.

In celebration, behold a new background/layout.

Enjoy, and celebrate.

Perfect

Sitting.

Updating my ipod.

Laying on the floor.

Drinking wine.

Eating cheese and greek olives.

Barefoot.

Kitten purring next to me.

Pj's and pony tail.

Loving the moment.

G'night.

Dream to Disaster

As everyone knows by this point, I'm changing positions at my work. This was supposed to be quite exciting but has turned into a chaotic misfortune for me. I would go into detail but I'm trying to keep an open mind. I'm giving it all next week to try this new situation out, maybe even the week after - unfortunately I'm already feeling a great amount of dread in anticipation of Monday and the week to follow. I just want to have a full platform to request a change - not just burst into tears after the first day and say I hate it as I'm sobbing in a pool of my own schlept.

Enough about that, as it has already commanded far too much attention as is.

This weekend has been quite calm, nothing amazing or shocking happened. Our tv stopped working, which isn't bad, just a nuisance. Hmmmm nothing really else has happened. I have to get some dr appointments set up, but finding new dr's is more of a hassle then I first thought. It's not just as easy as closing your eyes and swinging your finger around on a page and stopping - I tried it. What else shall I write about?

MmMmMm. I know! I can steal something from someone elses blog. BEHOLD! A square about Me:


This is stolen from Jennifer, aka http://thewordcellar.blogspot.com/ . She has all the guidelines should you want to make one yourself.

I'm currently reading a book called Sybil - about a girl and her multiple personalities. It's quite something, definitely not a light read. If anyone has any suggestions of books to read feel free to post or email me. I always have a book on the go, and I like reading what other people read.

I'll leave you with a quote....

"The art of living is more like wrestling than dancing"

-Marcus Aurelius

Sister, Sister

For those of you who know my charming sister, her blog is linked to the left at the bottom. If you're too lazy to find it, here's the link!

http://dancingbarefootintherain.blogspot.com

Happy Blogging to all.

Tomorrow, Tomorrow

I'll love you tomorrow.....only a day away. I adore Annie. Never the less, sorry about not posting "tomorrow" as I said I would. Instead of updating I waited and added the blogs to the side bar. Let me tell you, these are amazing women - word warriors if you will. Give them a visit - there's something for everyone, all you have to do is look.

Be kind :)

Crash Crying

Sometimes you have to cry. An emotional, gut wrenching release. So strong that in the end you're sobbing shakes your entire being.

It's been a long time since I've allowed myself to cry - trying to be strong. Keep in mind I wound easy and I don't heal quickly by any means.

So I cried. Long, and deep. Distraughtly and without reason.


That being said, lets move on to the events that led up to this moment.
Aka, the last 3 weeks...

At work:
We've been dealing with one of the girls coming back from maternity leave, one going on working vacation for a week, and then another girl going on vacation for 2 weeks. It's not easy to do all the switch'aroo'ing, typically we can handle it flawlessly, it's just a lot of work to prepare for those people being gone. Needless to say our normal routine was blown to pieces. Another change is that my position is changing from an administrative assistant to an research assistant moonlighting as an administrative assistant. This change is epic in proportion because it's completely different from what I'm currently doing. Firstly, I get my own office - sick I know. Secondly I'll be working under our Executive Direct Hire Recruiter. Thirdly, I'll be helping in the research and retrieval of candidates, as well as sourcing and eventually doing primary phone interviews. The DH Recruiter and I discussed what we were both looking to accomplish as well as just getting to know each other a bit, which shed a lot of light for me - at that point I didn't know what quite to expect. So I'm trying to close out all my current projects. I didn't realize quite how many balls I've been juggling until I started passing them on to other people. I seem to take on a lot of work, thankfully I haven't overloaded myself yet, we'll see how much I can handle until I explode. Next week is my last week to close out everything and fully prepare myself for my new position etc. so that should be fun!

At home:
Trying to juggle work and home life is harder then anyone ever let on. I realized that things don't always fit into a pretty little boxes with a perfect little bows, and that life doesn't get easier, it gets harder...much much harder. The decisions have more weight, risk, and sometimes reward. I'm trying to balance everything, and lately I feel like I'm unable to keep my head above water. I'll get it eventually I'm sure, or I'll have an emotional break down. Either outcome sounds exciting no? The garden needs weeding, the house is a disaster zone, my care hasn't seen a good bucket of bubbles in 3 months, and there are so many loads of laundry to do that if I start now it'll still take up the rest of my weekend. I'm trying to be rational and realize that there is always another weekend, that I don't have to shove it all into this one, unfortunately I've never been that rational - Thanks mama - hehe just kidding. Too bad things arn't as simple as they were way back when - then again I could have ended up much worse. So I've been jamming as much as I can into everyday, tiring myself out to complete exhaustion, and going backwards instead of moving forward.

Anyways...

The last three weeks have been chaos, and I fear that next week is just going to get worse.

I'll post again tomorrow - sorry this is just a bunch of half thoughts. That's all I'm able to muster at this point.

G'night